3 posts tagged “in vino verite”

Here I am in the corner again. Where I hide...
There's no one here I want, but I probably came out to want.
Felt like blogging, yet I feel like that said it all...

Another night out...

Sometimes I wonder if gay men are more sexually driven than heterosexual men.
There's the popular belief that men are just procreators... Internally wired to spread our seed. This ideology is admittedly often used to excuse philandering, & polyamorism.
Yet, there are compelling elements to that argument...
I believe that a man should rise above his base emotions. He should see a person & recognize traits outside of his lust.
Yet I would say that 80% of the time... My cock notices a guy more than my brain. Luckily, my brain has the majority vote...
Somehow that feels like hypocrisy...
Cliche alert: 'I'm a visual person'
Yet that's true of sighted people... Logically, in most real-world situations (a steadily out-moded scenario, yet thankfully, strongly viable) the visual aspect is what you first take in of a person. This does not intrensically indicate physicality per se. Body language is huge as a first impression.
I'm kind of wandering topically though...
Lately my lustful urges have been greater... Strangely this is because I've been stressed out about finding a new apartment.
Weird, huh? That's right... My stress response, for some strange reason, is an increased libido.
It's passed... I've found a new place...
It just has me thinking... How does that become a conditioned response?
I've used sex as a security blanket in the past, a remnant of low self-esteem... Is it some sort of development stemming from that?
Or am I simply looking for the release of orgasm?
It does have a way of making worries fade though, right?
Maybe I should just embrace it & stress more...

Gay lust Why stress?

So... I made it to a FNM night & became intrigued by some 20-something guy spouting off about his personal ideology.
That's the age of ideology right? A time when the world's knowledge is so readily available, & so easily interpreted by the collegiate mind.
He had some interesting ideas too.
He felt that homosexuality was a sexual disorder, & compared it to having A.D.D. He believed that if we could get over the stigma of its inherent sexual dealings, & the ongoing fight for gay rights, then we could perhaps come to a point where it's treatable.
Now, I have to give him that it was less offensive than some anti-gay arguments...
I won't rehash our short discussion here, but I will comment on my opinion of his outlook.
I don't think homosexuality is a disorder.
Duh, right? No way you saw a gay dude thinking that...
Yet... I want more than just sex with a man. I'm not a psychologist so maybe I'm wrong.
It seems to me though that a person suffering a sexual disorder would be pretty fixated on the sexual aspect.
I like to have sex, my libido is in fine shape, but I want more. I want beyond that small portion of a relationship.
I love. I want love. That doesn't seem like a disorder.

Lust vs. Logic... Fighting the 'GAY'