3 posts tagged “follow-up”

I know you don't find love when you're looking for it. You usually recreate the facts around something to make it fit. I've done that, & I'm pretty good at recognizing the signs now... Hehe.
I'm not so much down about not having someone... It's something I'd like to find, but I still mostly believe it'll come along in time.
It's just that I'm not really meeting friends either. I'm turning into a hermit. When I go out to the bar I watch the Tv screen... That's a bad sign, right?
I feel like I'm internalizing too much. That would be fine if I was working on me stuff, but I'm not. I'm just sort of bowing out of the world it seems...
So... I figure I need to find a hobby. Maybe something social so I can meet people...

Pondering what to do...

Well... I was a little drunk last night, huh?
I hope no one takes offense to too much. I'll let the posts stand for now.
It really does make me mad though. Here I am, hoping to meet a nice guy, I do... And he's "not happy" in his "marriage" and gets some on the side.
I really wanted to just make my moral obligations just shut up... Hehe
As you can read though... They were too loud.

Waking...

I'm pissed! That's what it is...
I'm mad! This guy has 15 years... Something I keep dreaming I'll find...& he can toss it away on some fuck he meets in a bar...?
I'm real... I know that's what I am...
He's the best offer I've had in weeks, & he's weighing me against 15 years?!?
This rattles my hope... That's why I'm pissed.
I really do believe in Love & he can just toss it aside... I can't find a date & he can toss 15 years aside for a piece of ass...