6 posts tagged “drinkin”

We are losing... Boo!
I feel I can regain my happy mood at Jackhammer though!
Onward... To fun!

Darts has fouled my mood...

Charles is here from MI, visiting & seeing RENT. I met he & Doug after for some bar-hopping. As we were walking last night I saw this sign on a gate we passed.
Now... I've seen a lot of electronic gates, & I've never seen one move with enough speed & power to crush a person.
This is one of those strange protections from lawsuits you see sometimes. I'm wondering if it means someone was killed by one somewhere...

Obvious Signs & Silly Omens...

I just read a post by a guy who was disappointed in dating, & blamed it on the shallowness of men... There's some truth there...
I have only myself to blame however; For I am a pussy.
I feared this to be true, & last night I proved it to myself. There was an attractive guy, clearly giving me the eye & I did nothing.
Leaving the bar I glance inside the taqueria next door, & there he is again. He smiled & gave me a wave.
I kept walking, then berated myself for being a coward. I turned around & went inside, trying to look casual as I placed my order.
Our eyes met several times, but still I pussed out. Then to add to it... His order comes up & he & his two friends sit at the table right next to me.
I wait quietly for my food, then leave without saying anything...
I glance back in the window, & he waves to me. I wave shyly back & go home to eat my quesadilla alone.
This is why I'm single.

Bust a Move!Or be single forever...

So... Here at the 'mo bar...again...
I'm cruising guys... Guys are cruising me...
And I leave... There are guys I could have tonight... Maybe even tomorrow...
But... I leave... I'll hate that its just me, but I'll leave alone...
Sadly, I still believe there's this guy who i'll meet... The one...the one...
God damn... That sounds so fucking stupid!
it echoes & I want to slap myself.
I'm 31 & I still believe in the Prince Charming myth...
I mean...seriously...I still believe... Its certifiable!
There's a guy who's perfect for me? What am I? Barbie?
I'm confounded, honestly. I'm so cynical, yet I truly believe there's this guy sort of hovering in the ether...waiting for me...
I'm confused now because I don't know whether I'm a cynic or a hopeless romantic...
I didn't think they could be so close to one another...
I'm a cynic... I know I am... Ask my friends...
Yet I believe this guy will walk up to me & i'll fall...

Fuck!
How thin can beer make a person's blood?
So... If you're new here... I go out after pre-cocktailing often... I am often surprised by being drunk in the pix... & I edit them to make myself look better. Judge my inebriation from this info...
I'm just looking to wake tomorrow with a feeling of fun last night. Is that wrong?
I want to date a guy I can't, hoping he's what I think he could be.
I want to fuck a guy I think is only a charicature. I don't want him to be anything more unless he is more beyond what I can see.
Both entice me equally because I am so essentially lost...
Wow! I hate the connection to my candor that alcohol makes... Yet I feel free of needless weight. I'm following the flow of my cock...
Only one guy can catch my heart, but he's not feeling me. He's feeling him. Maybe he knows that...

Geez... It's cold out here...

I immediately distance myself. I'm completely self-concious, but I bet they read snob. Either way... I'm outside the pride...
I'm totally thinking of Dan. He's not responding to my texts. I'm quite annoyed by my jealousy.
Just got a VM... Hope its Dan.
BTW... I've decided Word Vomit will be a type of blog entry. A sort of stream-of-conciousness view of my activities...
I really just want to call Dan & say a bunch of shit that I've been thinking, pretending I'm drunk for later deniability. Does that make me evil; Premeditation?
I live in my head too much. Here I am in a bar... Blogging...

Charlies: Word Vomit!