http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/posts/tags/confessions/page/1/ This is my place to muse, philosophize, or rant... Maybe I'll say something funny from time to time though... en Vox Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:16:32 -0500 Copyright 2008 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss confessions http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/early-judgement-time-bandits.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/early-judgement-time-bandits.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/early-judgement-time-bandits.html?_c=feed-rss-full Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:16:32 -0500 <p>Okay... Adult magic does suck. Its CGI all the way.<br />I was too quick to post though. By the end, all satire &amp; symbolisn faded. I was just a kid lost in an adventure. What if it really could happen...?<br />Maybe magic is more about where you start, &amp; less about how the &#39;real&#39; world fails. <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400e398eabbf50004" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398eabbf50004.html"><img src="http://a5.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398eabbf50004-500pi" alt="Early Judgement: Time Bandits" title="Early Judgement: Time Bandits" /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398eabbf50004.html" title="Early Judgement: Time Bandits">Early Judgement: Time Bandits</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/early-judgement-time-bandits.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400f48ce925280002?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog hope dreams confessions cynicism feeling good flick childhood magic http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/time-bandits-a-return-to-childhood-1981.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/time-bandits-a-return-to-childhood-1981.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/time-bandits-a-return-to-childhood-1981.html?_c=feed-rss-full Sat, 29 Mar 2008 00:30:02 -0500 <p>So... I remember loving this flick when I was a kid. I watched it &amp; watched it. Every time it was on Tv I was sitting in front of it.<br />For weeks now I&#39;ve been seeing it at Dominick&#39;s (a local supermarket chain), &amp; been tempted to buy it. I was curious if I would still love it so much...<br />I bought it tonight.<br />I&#39;ve found myself laughing at more subtle humor... No, not subtle, sarcastic, dry... That sounds closer...<br />Back then I understood in a vague sense that it was satirical...not really knowing what that was.<br />I understood that there was symbolism...not what it symbolized. Is that possible?<br />Now I see a lot more into the symbolism. Materialism, Technologic rule, Commercialism, maybe even a nod at Survivalism (that guy who eats everything).<br />My internal cynic gets it, &amp; I feel saddened that the sense of adventure fades when I recognize a theme.<br />Better to feel that what if I could...<br />Adult magic just sucks!<br /> <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400f48ce9318f0003" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400f48ce9318f0003.html"><img src="http://a7.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400f48ce9318f0003-500pi" alt="Time Bandits A Return to Childhood (1981)" title="Time Bandits A Return to Childhood (1981)" /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400f48ce9318f0003.html" title="Time Bandits A Return to Childhood (1981)">Time Bandits A Return to Childhood (1981)</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/time-bandits-a-return-to-childhood-1981.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400f48d07de690001?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog confessions flick childhood magic http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/cyber-identity-what-do-you-share.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/cyber-identity-what-do-you-share.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/cyber-identity-what-do-you-share.html?_c=feed-rss-full Thu, 07 Feb 2008 00:09:01 -0600 <p>So... Forgive the pic... I felt one was necessary considering what I&#39;m about to write. That was the good one! LOL<br />As usual... I was online &amp; someone mentioned how a lot of people don&#39;t post pics of themselves...<br />I began to wonder why one wouldn&#39;t do so. Obviously, if they feel unattractive... but what else might motivate the non-visual cyber identity?<br />Fear of Exposure- It&#39;s a gay site, maybe they&#39;re not out...<br />Weirdly I was somewhat shocked by my response to that idea. I was appalled.<br />I&#39;ve noticed that as I grow older &amp; more comfortable as an openly gay man, I&#39;m also becoming more militant &amp; less forgiving of closeted people.<br />Now coming out is a very personal act. I don&#39;t agree with outing people. I even question it when it&#39;s a political figure who attacks other gays as a means of camoflauge.<br />However, we live in a more progressive time. To be closeted today is cowardice in most cases.<br />It is a rough road, but one that must be taken to be wholly who you are.<br />I would never out someone, but today every GLB&amp;T must be brave enough to out themselves.<br />We need the voices.<br />More than that though...<br />Cyberspace allows a modicum of anonymity. Thus its appeal... Listen to Brad Paisley&#39;s &quot;Online&quot;. Great!<br />This is a dating site however. We live in a visual age. So share already... <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400e398da82220002" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398da82220002.html"><img src="http://a2.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398da82220002-500pi" alt="Cyber Identity: What do you share?" title="Cyber Identity: What do you share?" /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398da82220002.html" title="Cyber Identity: What do you share?">Cyber Identity: What do you share?</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/cyber-identity-what-do-you-share.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398da82230002?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog random thoughts confessions http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/expectations-truths.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/expectations-truths.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/expectations-truths.html?_c=feed-rss-full Fri, 01 Feb 2008 01:19:28 -0600 <p>Tonight I am drunk enough that truth runs like wine, &amp; the pen sweeps freely &#39;cross the page...<br />These are the words of a troubled heart freed by spirits of its secrecy.<br />Funny how the truth I try to hide is so easily read upon my face.<br />I&#39;m leaving the bar again alone. Granted, there were virtually no men I could have, or would...<br />Not one man hit on me tonight, nada. This has become routine...<br />Now... I know I&#39;m not a stud, I&#39;m not young... I am attractive however. I try to send out good vibes...<br />*shrug<br />The voice of reason says get a grip; it&#39;s a bar scene. This certainly has some bearing... Yet... </p> <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400f30f57b5480001" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400f30f57b5480001.html"><img src="http://a0.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400f30f57b5480001-500pi" alt="Expectations &amp; Truths..." title="Expectations &amp; Truths..." /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400f30f57b5480001.html" title="Expectations &amp; Truths...">Expectations &amp; Truths...</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/expectations-truths.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398d87d3a0003?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog gay dating confessions drizzunk http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/what-do-you-look-for-in-a-potential-other-half.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/what-do-you-look-for-in-a-potential-other-half.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/what-do-you-look-for-in-a-potential-other-half.html?_c=feed-rss-full Mon, 07 Jan 2008 03:23:42 -0600 <p>I was surfing the message boards &amp; this question was posed.<br />I&#39;ve been drinking wine, which makes me wax philosophic... Hehe<br />So... Here&#39;s my take:<br />An interesting thing to me is that the OP simply asked what qualities, and the word perfect was seemingly inferred...<br />I believe, whether they admit it or not, most people aren&#39;t looking for &quot;perfect&quot; exactly. It&#39;s more of an ideal we trying to re-capture.<br />Most of us are looking for a fairy-tale we heard as a child, that&#39;s how we understand love first, often... we want something magical to happen... we want that Hollywood love story. Maybe because fantasy has always been easier to digest...<br />Every time I&#39;ve fallen in love (&amp; I believe that LOVE is possible with more than one person) I was completely surprised by it.<br />Love is one of our greyest ideologies. It&#39;s so defining, &amp; so ephemeral. It spans every culture, race, religion, and oftens divides at those same lines. If I can believe in a &quot;god&quot; it&#39;s actually the force of love... I can name numerous vile things that have been done in the name of a god, but none in the name of love...<br />Love is ephermal, it is fleeting, but a great force must be...<br />I&#39;d rather submit to feeling good with someone, fleeting and glorious, than that scripted program we absorb as kids.<br />Heart-break is awful. How great is the alternative though?<br />What do I look for?<br />That next surprise... <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cfb7830001" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cfb7830001.html"><img src="http://a3.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cfb7830001-500pi" alt="What do you look for in a potential other-half?" title="What do you look for in a potential other-half?" /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cfb7830001.html" title="What do you look for in a potential other-half?">What do you look for in a potential other-half?</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/what-do-you-look-for-in-a-potential-other-half.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cfc9bf0004?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog sharing dating confessions weird thoughts stream-of-conciousness wine philosophizing http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/pondering-what-to-do.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/pondering-what-to-do.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/pondering-what-to-do.html?_c=feed-rss-full Sun, 30 Dec 2007 00:05:07 -0600 <p>I know you don&#39;t find love when you&#39;re looking for it. You usually recreate the facts around something to make it fit. I&#39;ve done that, &amp; I&#39;m pretty good at recognizing the signs now... Hehe.<br />I&#39;m not so much down about not having someone... It&#39;s something I&#39;d like to find, but I still mostly believe it&#39;ll come along in time.<br />It&#39;s just that I&#39;m not really meeting friends either. I&#39;m turning into a hermit. When I go out to the bar I watch the Tv screen... That&#39;s a bad sign, right?<br />I feel like I&#39;m internalizing too much. That would be fine if I was working on me stuff, but I&#39;m not. I&#39;m just sort of bowing out of the world it seems...<br />So... I figure I need to find a hobby. Maybe something social so I can meet people...</p><p></p><p><br /> <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400e398ce00290003" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398ce00290003.html"><img src="http://a1.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398ce00290003-500pi" alt="Pondering what to do..." title="Pondering what to do..." /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398ce00290003.html" title="Pondering what to do...">Pondering what to do...</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/pondering-what-to-do.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cde0290001?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog friends gay mystery hope dating confessions follow-up weird thoughts following the cock http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/running-away.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/running-away.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/running-away.html?_c=feed-rss-full Fri, 28 Dec 2007 04:45:33 -0600 <p>I can&#39;t! I can&#39;t! I just can&#39;t!<br />So... 2 weeks ago I meet this hot guy out... We make-out... Grope... Good to go on all cylinders...<br />My place is trashed so we agree that he&#39;ll call the next day for lunch with &quot;dessert&quot;.<br />He doesn&#39;t call... Disappointing, but not my first time at the rodeo, right?<br />Tonight... All over me again... I play frostbite, looking for the why...<br />I&#39;ve been married 15 years... Is the why. He knows I play, he can join, all the BS one expects...<br />I wanted to be okay with it. He was hot, his husband didn&#39;t care, but it was all me...<br />I cared... It&#39;s all I could do...<br />Yes... I wanted him... His cock, his ass...everything. I even believe his husband knew I was there...<br />All the same I only wanted to run...<br />I felt like I was tempting the flames of hell, though we&#39;re doomed from the first pole we smoke as I understand most beliefs...<br />So I ran... I feel good, yet still lost... <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cc4fb90001" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cc4fb90001.html"><img src="http://a1.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cc4fb90001-500pi" alt="Running away..." title="Running away..." /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cc4fb90001.html" title="Running away...">Running away...</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/running-away.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cc4fba0001?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog gay hope faith confessions following the cock http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/bust-a-moveor-be-single-forever.html?_c=feed-rss-full nobody@vox.com(Seamus Id) http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/bust-a-moveor-be-single-forever.html?_c=feed-rss-full http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/bust-a-moveor-be-single-forever.html?_c=feed-rss-full Sun, 23 Dec 2007 12:44:32 -0600 <p>I just read a post by a guy who was disappointed in dating, &amp; blamed it on the shallowness of men... There&#39;s some truth there...<br />I have only myself to blame however; For I am a pussy.<br />I feared this to be true, &amp; last night I proved it to myself. There was an attractive guy, clearly giving me the eye &amp; I did nothing.<br />Leaving the bar I glance inside the taqueria next door, &amp; there he is again. He smiled &amp; gave me a wave.<br />I kept walking, then berated myself for being a coward. I turned around &amp; went inside, trying to look casual as I placed my order.<br />Our eyes met several times, but still I pussed out. Then to add to it... His order comes up &amp; he &amp; his two friends sit at the table right next to me.<br />I wait quietly for my food, then leave without saying anything...<br />I glance back in the window, &amp; he waves to me. I wave shyly back &amp; go home to eat my quesadilla alone.<br />This is why I&#39;m single. <div at:enclosure="asset" at:xid="6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cb0fb50003" at:format="extra-large" at:align="center" class="enclosure enclosure-center enclosure-extra-large photo-enclosure" style="text-align: center;"> <div class="enclosure-inner" style="padding: 9px; border: 1px solid; width: px; margin: 10px auto;" > <div class="enclosure-list"> <div class="enclosure-item photo-asset last"> <div class="enclosure-image"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cb0fb50003.html"><img src="http://a5.vox.com/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cb0fb50003-500pi" alt="Bust a Move!Or be single forever..." title="Bust a Move!Or be single forever..." /></a> </div> <div class="enclosure-meta"> <div class="enclosure-asset-name"><a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cb0fb50003.html" title="Bust a Move!Or be single forever...">Bust a Move!Or be single forever...</a></div> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div><!-- end enclosure --> </p> <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://seamusid262.vox.com/library/post/bust-a-moveor-be-single-forever.html?_c=feed-rss-full#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398b76ac0000400e398cb0fb80003?_c=feed-rss-full">Send to a friend</a> </p> moblog gay failure dating confessions drinkin panic control